Duh, coba nginget2 lagi nih kejadiannya gimana?
Since it's been a while i've been awayyy! :(
Bersemangat 45 pingin liat babynya, pingin denger detak jantungnya, pingin liat gumpalannya,,, Pas di Week ke 8 kita balik ke Dr. Sri RSIB... Deg2an! dan wedewww ngantrinyaaa! salah hari kayanya,, kmaren beginner's luck! secara no. antrian yang kita dapet no. 18 ajah! hiks,,, ngopi dulu,, beli koran & majalah resep,,, dan akhirnya masuk jam 10 ajah!
hmmmph,,, and not so good news either,,
i cannot say much,,, intinya gw divonis blighted ovum - undeveloped pregnancy!
there's only gestational sac and placentae seen,,, yes hunny, there's no baby at all,,,
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huff,,, tetep dengan muka tenang, i asked hell lot of questions about the cause,,, i wanna know whether it was sumthin i didn't do or do wrong?!? :( muka sepet dan sok tau gw udh mulai keluar,,, gak bisa gw tutup2in,,,
yah, dr penjelasan Dr. Sri sih kita dapet intinya,,, dia suggest untuk balik 2 minggu lagi untuk liat apakah memang ada perkembangan (but she did mention not to be happy, karna kecil banget kemungkinannya).
Keluar dr situ we were devastated,, penuh dengan banyak pertanyaan di kepala,,, kita masih dikasih asam folat,,, and we decided to go for a second opinion,,,
After hell a lot of googling bout blighted ovum we finally get it,,,
yah mo dgimanain lagi!? (walo ngarep tu mesin USGnyah yang rusak jadi janinnya ngumpet) but no,,,
so we made an appointment at RSIA Asih dengan Dr. Nurwansyah (rekomendasi temen deketku,,) so we went there Thursday, gak ngantri sih karna dapet no.3 Dokternya aja lagi sholat,,, huhuhuhu USG dalem :( kakinya udh gemeteran,,, but igo was right beside me,,,
and he confirms,,,
that it is a blighted ovum,,,
and it's on the stage of peluruhan already so we've got to have it removed right away,,,
i needed time,,
i asked for sometime,,,
to tell mom n dad,,,both our moms and dads,,, our future child's grandparents to be,,,
this is the hardest part,,,
so we did,
we texted cause we couldnt, i couldnt bear telling them in person,,,
